I'm kind of confused right now. Up until I reached 21, I was unaware of my condition and thought it a kind of abnormal weakness. When I stumbled upon the Wikipedia page for LS, I was stunned. to everything on the page minus one or two things (such as a disfuntional family, though that one is kind of hazy). Yet, I have always hated myself (runs in my family; my grandmother hated herself too, despite being told by many that she was beautiful). I have a killer self-esteem. Additionally, I believe I may be borderline BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder); I hate my body. This stems from my pre-high school days when I was bone thin. However, I have worked out, benching nearly twice my weight and have a six-pack and yet my perception persists. I know BDD, LS, and a low self-esteem intertwine at points, but I'm not sure which one has dominated in keeping me from living a healthy, happy life. Anyone else suffer from something more than LS or from being incel? Maybe I'm just a sick fool. Bring on the hate; I've received so much of it in my life that I expect it; cold civility is even appreciated next to this.

I suffer from "something more" too. APD, which is the one that is severely damaging my life in every area, and SA. And sometimes I'm not happy at all with my body and this feeling brings some confusion.