There's another line of reasoning behind why we "push people away":

We build walls around ourselves not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

I found this quote a few weeks ago. I think a lot of can relate to this.

I think in my case, what more can I do to try and knock my friend's wall down?

How I feel most days:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aWz5NOC0 ... u.be&t=15s

Only no ropes for me.

"The man who removes a mountain, begins by carrying away small stones" -Chinese Proverb.

And they said it in Russia too..."Little drops of water wear down large stones"



“Energy and persistence conquer all things.”
Benjamin Franklin

And the one that helps me so much.

“It ain't about how hard you can hit. Its about how hard you can get hit, and how much you can take, and keep moving forward.”
Rocky Balboa

Don't give up on your friend. I'm pulling for you all the way.

You're talking to a guy who's been suffering from a severe case of involuntary social isolation for the last 5-6 months. If things continue at this rate, I really don't think I can last another 5-6 months; let alone another 26 years:

Social Isolation Kills, But How and Why?
http://www.psychosomaticmedicine.org/co ... 2/273.full

If social isolation really is "comparable with that of cigarette smoking and other major biomedical and psychosocial risk factors", only God knows what damage has already been done to my body.

Wow.

"whoever saves one life, saves the world entire" -Talmud

"You never leave your partner; Especially in a fire..."

ESPECIALLY in a fire.



You know, thatright? I had an idea. Why don't you go out and buy a cheap mp3 player/portable cd player. Load the mp3 player or burn a cd and give your friend a playlist. You can't just give him a list of songs, you have to give him the whole thing. Fill it with songs that say everything you want to say and things to encourage him. Music is a very powerful medium and can break through when other ways won't. Load it with love and encouragement.....no Tori Amos as much as I love her.

You could also do sound recordings of yourself. Read to him. Talk to him. Sing silly songs to him. Then, when you are not there standing outside, and the pressure is off, he can put the earbuds in and listen to you.

Baby steps. Whatever it takes. I know you have it.

Go, girl. Gotta find bubba:)

Another idea, building on that last one...you say your friend doesn't have internet..thats fine. If your finances allow, look for a used laptop(NEW IF YOU CAN AFFORD IT!) If you can't afford it, look on ebay. YOu can get a used one for cheap, look for one without an operating system. People here can walk you through how to install linux on it or something and you can have a great way to get your presence to him in MANY ways. You could burn data cds with videos you downloaded from youtube, record YOURSELF on video, get it set up for if he CAN get to internet...messaging program, video, email. You must do all the work right now, he more than likely doesn't have the emotional strength to even care to do anything for himself. This way you can put more than just a letter under the door. I used to write letters because I'm a very wordy person(as if you can't tell LOL) but it took a long time before I realized that my friend is so NOT a reader and has a hard time digesting all the things I would say. So I got creative. I make videos using music, text, pictures that mean things to both of us. I have to find ways to say things so he can hear.

This is actually a really simple, tried and true cute idea. At least I'd appreciate a mix tape/playlist/whatever. That and it's a low anxiety interaction to help him ease into it.

The above Isn't a bad suggestion at all. Certain songs carry more weight than others. I'd personally recommend this song: