I just turned 28 and realized I like guys. My extremely shy personality turned on a dime last week and now I can talk to people because my self confidence has shot through the roof. I can even talk to woman now. Before all this came out I was miserable and shut off from the outside world. I havent been this happy in 28 years. I tried to fit into the mold of a straight guy and it almost killed me.

so

For the past 4 months Ive been idealizing suicide in my head because my social anxiety isolates me from the outside world. Ive been looking at almost nothing but gay porn the past six months while I masturbate. I told a younger bisexual friend from back home that I was bisexual. Then I told another friend I was bisexual and both of my friends were completely accepting. That was two weeks ago and at that point I was still in denial so went online started looking at guys and gay porn to test myself. I realized then I was attracted to guys. My extremely shy personality turned on a dime and my self confidence skyrocketed. My shyness disapeared and Ive been able to talk to people like never before. I came out to my family and a few close friends. The stress from the past two weeks sent me into shell shock. I know Im attracted to guys but not sure about girls since ive never been with one.

okay

I failed to mention ive had numerous lap dances in straight strip clubs and never once pitched a tent. The last time I had a lap dance I over heard the stripper talking to another stripper saying this guy didnt even get hard. She went onto say that normaly the guy gets a hard on when getting a lap dance. Ive never been a huge fan of tittys bars. In fact for my 22nd birthday i chose to go see the "40 year old Virgin" in the theaters over going to the strip club with my older brother. He gave me a choice and I chose the movie. My junior prom in highschool was quite awkward as well. During the slow songs me and my date were like 2 feet apart not even touching. She was a friend and she had invited me to her prom in another town. I had a crush on her but shortly after the prom debacle she broke off our friendship. I had my own tea set with flowers on it as a young kid. Ive always loved sappy love songs. I think as time passes Ill get more comfortable but right now Im still adjusting to the idea of my new life. Im not going to give up completely on girls but if it hasnt happened by now it probaley wont. At the moment I would consider myself an 3 or 4 on the kinsey scale.

I guess this is one instance where a love-shy actually did turn out to be homosexual lol

Yeah.

I'm happy for you, dude. Now you won't be incel anymore, because you never were love shy!

Not so easy for me, though, because I'm definitely attracted to women.

*Waits for picky picky to stop by and berate Marvinteck for accepting his homosexuality and telling him that he just "grew up confused by the liberal media" and that he should use his newfound confidence to get a girlfriend instead.*

The thread title is confusing as anything, though.

You can't approach girls because you are gay? Oh. Well, then.

xD x2

I can't approach guys because I'm straight.

Isn't that essentially what the OP is saying?

Its been about three weeks since I acknowledged the fact I'm gay. The first week was rough. I was manic from the stress. My personality turned on a dime. I wasn't shy anymore. I was talkative and outgoing. I was allot more productive and open to the people around me. Nothing could stop me because I was fearless. For the first time in years I could speak without stuttering or stammering. The words flowed like honey from my mouth. Two weeks later after the adrenaline wore off my personality became painfully shy again. I have made some progress in being more social and I'm planning on continuing to work on my social skills.

The number one thing that drives me absolutely crazy about my social anxiety is my voice box freezes making it almost impossible to talk. I try to talk but the words wont come out because it feels like somebody is crushing my voice box. It drives me bonkers. Three weeks ago when I was manic I was talking a mile a minute and didn't miss a beat. Now I'm back sounding like a retard again because I cant complete a sentence. I hate it with a passion. I just looked it up on line and what I suffer from could be best described as selective mutism. From past experience I learned using coke has the same effect on me as being manic. I am friendly, out going, talkative and open to being around people when I'm high. I haven't touch it in years though because with the benefits came the downfalls as well. I liked it a little bit too much and was paying the price. Had to put an end to that.

The last few weeks I have been thinking about what I want out of life. There are some changes Id like to make and some things I am happy with how they are. The one thing I realized is I don't have to change my whole life around. I can still drive a truck, wear the same clothes, eat the same foods, listen to the same music, stay single, etc. . I don't want to feel obligated to fit into an stereotype and act like someone I'm not. I am trying to broaden my horizons though and be more open to change. I'm me and cant be any thing more or less than that.

ok budy congrats for your discovery at least you have more chances to have a meaningful relationship in your life than most of us in here. Gays have much more options than a shy LS guy regarding relationships.