Honestly suicide is probably the best route out when I turn twenty-one in 3 years and can buy a gun. I would say I could just run off to the mountains and isolate myself from society but I think its impossible and too many close friends/relatives would be creepin up on me.

Im still young but I can foresee the future. Life is just an endless pattern. The brain power I've wasted on girls since third grade. The constants thoughts that flowed through my brain about that ONE girl (yes oneitis) constantly constantly constantly. Im pretty sure my brain was "rotted" in a way during my adolescence by constantly fantasizing and wondering WHAT THE FUCK I need to do to talk to that girl or when the fuck that magical moment is going to happen when it all works out. I should have been having my first little flirty, innocent, awkward, funny conversations with girls when I was in six grade, storing all these minor successes of actually socializing with the opposite sex in my memory, NOT FUCKING IN LOVE WITH THEM.

And now its about how many rap lyrics you know, who can be the biggest asshole, who can be the most arrogant, pompous fucker. Its awesome to be on sprees of actually socializing but then the conversation comes up about the girls youve fucked, hahaha man that bitch was ugly, ahaha a girls never made me do that before, that kinda shit only works when they work the tip, and you have to remain silent, because these experiences dont appear in your past. In fact nothing appears in your past, not even a kiss, and you realize why this is true, that obviously you are just a piece of shit with just not much of a personality or attractive "sexual" traits. And then Im defeated. Defeated for that night with thoughts of negativity, thoughts I need to block out but are almost impossible to do so. And then more time is wasted not improving. "Why is 'my name' not talking right now?" "Thats how 'my name' gets sometimes. He's kinda like the Kenny of the group ahahaha." Yup thats just the way I fucking am motherfuckers.

It comforts me knowing we are all a biological mistake. In a hundred years none of this shit will matter. Every SINGLE one of us will be rotting in the ground, in peace. Life will be over, no afterlife to worry about, no worries whatsoever.

Still I refuse to give up. Its way too early. I can only try harder for now.

just reading the paper today made me depressed people are so dumb these days, if i could id go buy an old titan 1 missile silo and live down there and isolate myself from the idiocy of this world.

DAMN that thing is NICE! I guess I would buy one, too.

Well, I am glad you're not giving up yet. I am sure that there are other guys who felt the way you do around your age but managed to push past it. Just keep pushing yourself as long as you don't give up there is still going to be a chance you can push threw it.

Until then don't hesitate to say that it sucks. And remember that you must have a lot of inner strength to have got as far as you already have. There may be days when you may have to dig deep to find it but know that it is there. I think this inner strength is something that the guys on this forum have plenty of.

You should try getting muscular before you give up. It's probably the hardest, most time consuming, most energy consuming method, and most people say it's not worth the effort, but I think it would honestly help 90% of incel/LS.

You go through a serious mental change when you get ripped. You're confidence skyrockets, you're abiltity to do things increases, you become more aware, you're treated with increased respect by strangers and people you're meeting for the first time, people want to be friends with you, and many other things that change your mindset from weak/meagre, to dominant.

I've been considering this lately. My school has a brand new gym I could work out at for free every day. I'm skinny already so it'd be all muscle I'd be building from the start. The confidence boost sounds interesting.

I know how you feel, your puting wayyyy too much emphasis on what your social status is in relation to your sex life, typical for teenagers and don't believe your peers are either telling you the whole truth or in some cases lieing outright. Since I don't know you personally the only thing I can really tell you to do is relax, your still quite young and situations will change, so relax

Yeah. At least try it. I've seen some guys get some success from it. I'm not one of them though. I was built, but still short with thinning hair and an unpleasing face, etc. Oh well. You won't know until you give it a go.

I get depressed even jacking off to porn. Because there's no way I could get a girl like that.

I've searched for porn with a fat nerdy looking guy in his 20's, wearing glasses, with a hot girl. Never found anything. I guess porn mirrors real life, in a way.

Former fellow forum administrator, Cold Heart's goal was to get rich so he could buy a complex out in Montana and live like a hermit, fixing up old cars in the silos.

thats actually a really cool idea, fix up the silo install some new cribbing and put in a hydraulic jack platform to raise and lower cars to the surface

I am on the verge of giving up entirely on it, too. There's only so many rejections I can take

Feel much better now. Today was just one of those days I woke up feeling especially like shit and had to post all that crap. I actually just had a pretty damn decent conversation with a girl so yayyy to fucking me.

I have been there for 5 months. Everything what you said I felt 24/7 and in an extreme manner. As stupid as it sounds, you've got to realise that women and sex is by far not everything. What worked for me is FORCING myself to GIVE UP, because incel statred to get me going crazy. Once you give, even temporarily, and try to control your emotions life turns out a lot better. This is the only way I found out of feeling like you are feeling. My advice is desensisation about women and focuss on your strenghts and make them define you. Say it in the mirror out loud: I am the champion, do not care about what most people think, as most people are stupid. This will lift your confidence. I was also saying that life is crap, even if it is, try making the best of it! Laugh in the face of the difficulties and you will feel better. I have had my crap moments, trust me on that, I see you also get better moments and your mood changes, just like me. Just consider the desensisation/not caring coping mechanism.

That's nice, but you just bumped a thread that was 2 and a half years old. This doesn't really pertain to me anymore.

It's nice to see my tranformation from back when I first started college.