she feels important and great sense of sadistic power..

What do you feel when you swat a mosquito?

Your hatred will burn a hole in you, if you do not learn to control it.

You need to seek some guidance , before things get out of hand, IMO.

Give me ONE VALID REASON why.

And after I complemented you on your avatar. I get the old 'Mikey is a psychopath' routine.

What kind of 'guidance' would help huh?

Can't have the woman I want.

Have to settle for sex.

Can't get sex unless I pay.

How the fuck am SUPPOSED to feel about women?

You are right, Mikey.

I know we had our differences but I understand your frustration.

No amount of positive thinking, psychobabble crap, or happy pills will help you. You need to be loved. You need to at least know what a woman's body feels like. You do not need a lecture on self esteem, losing weight, dress sense, or positive mental attitude. What you need is a woman who can see the kind of hell you are going through, and reach out and help you.

I wouldn't mind Dante, but I really would like to know what this mysterious 'guidance' is. I meant my intial comment as a fucking joke. Seems to me on this forum, that certain posters can say what they want, whilst others cannot. Things will not get 'out of hand'. They won't 'coz I won't allow them too. As soon as I have the spare cash, I am going to pay for sex. And I would suggest that ever LS/Incel here does the same. Forget 'love' and 'romance'. It's utter bollocks because it will never happen. Women want bad boy alpha dickheads. They do not want us. So you either beome something you are not, or bite the bullet and accept the fact that if you want sex, then you are goint to have to pay for it.

Even if I did 'get jacked' - what then?

I hate night clubs.

I refuse point blank to wear designer clothes.

I will not listen to shitty pop music.

I do not watch fucking dross like 'The X Factor' on TV.

I am not interested in celebrity gossip.

So even if I had a body of an adonis, I have absolutely NOTHING in common with 99.9999999999% of all females.

I honestly belive that out of every 1,000 women in the western world, 90% of them are an utter waste of my time. And the only woman I COULD spend the rest of my life with is now married to my sister.

So you work it out. I either find a way to rid myself of my sex drive, become gay, or settle for banging escorts. WTF would you do?

Either pity or disgust. Or (if she's nice), she might feel bad, but it will soon turn to a sense of neutralism.

So you dont go mad and end up killing another human being, probably a woman, thats why.

If you think your life is bad now just wait until they ship you off to prison for rape or murder. Your life will go from being bad, to outright miserable in the graybar hotel.

You DO know what they do to guys in prison who are weak, dont you? It wont be a pleasant experience.

I wish I could wave a magic wand and my it all go away for you, but I cant do that, Mike.

Sooner or later you are going to have to deal with your LS/Incel. I took me MANY years to do so myself, and there were no internet forums back then. Maybe talking to a therapist would help you, but I cannot say.

As far as sex goes there is no shame in using a hooker to get your V-card off if it comes to that. Lots of celebrities who have lots of money use hookers all the time.

Prostitution has been around since women figured out they could make money off men by using their pussies for cash on the barrel. Did you know that when many men lose a good paying job their wife's leave them? If that ain't prostitution I dont know what is, Mike.

Mikey is not physically or mentally weak (where did you get that from?) and I don't think being imprisoned would matter a lot to a guy who never had sex at 45 . Its like putting a guy in a different room of hell - it will still be hot.

Still, Mikey, try with that escort once you get the money.

I know a lot of people like to label you "crazy" and it seems you agree with that (unless you're being facetious).

I am not convinced for a second that there is anything mentally wrong with you. I believe you have one of the strongest spirits on this forum.

I agree, you have one of the strongest mental resolves of anyone here on this forum, Mikey.

You simply WILL NOT compromise the core of your identity just because its what women demand of you. Nor should you. You shouldn't have to change who you are, just because a lot of today's women are sheep, and follow ridiculous trends.

I was just trying to help. I assumed that Mikey was a lad becuase most older men use Mike as thier name. I apologise to Mikey and you. I was only trying to help. No matter how bad LS is prison is a lot worse and there are no pretty girls to stare at in there, like there are when you are free.

I am 55 years old and I know how awful this condition is. I have never been loved by a woman either, although I have lived with one for a couple of years and have fucked many more including, a couple of Call Girls. I feel no shame in that at all.

Dating is still never a pleasant thing for me even though I do it to score some pussy from women who I don't really care about. I will never have the woman I really want since my Oneitis is still very bad. Hopefully you can see that I do indeed know something about Mikey and the hell he is going through. My apologies to all concerned.

As for mikey, let me just say some selectively nice things and then stating overall truths.

Childhood
Bullied. Poverty. No utilities.

Adulthood
Virginity. Untreated depression for decades. Years of medication. Months of counselling. Death of a best friend and pet. Oneitis marries his sister.

Nice: In this regard, you've probably the most will to live out of all of us. Considering past, present, and dare I say future, I'm surprised you've lived this long.

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Truth: Your history gives reason to your behaviour but doesn't excuse. (I've argued this many times, especially with monkey) Many people have suffered and many people have overcome it or at least have taken to it better. Even on this so-called 'extreme' forum you're one of the most 'extreme'. To anyone who reads your posts the truth is you want the impossible, you've admitted a few times amidst your bitching/whining (ranting/venting or whatever). Not only that, the reality is you're fucked in almost every regard. Even compared to some of the worst off posters, you're definitely the worst.

I would agree that something is wrong with you, as you've said before depression. Playing arm-chair psychologist I might add bipolar or something similar as you follow a VERY predicable pattern. A pattern of extremely fluctuating emotions and irrational thinking. . . I didn't even link to posts where others tried to help you or you asked for help because you either refused or threatened everyone away. I honestly don't even care and you're not going to listen and you're not going to change.

Best word to desribe you now is CONFUSED. Ever since you found this forum you've been talking about paying for sex, trying to earn money, losing your virginity. For a year nothing happened. . . now, even after your inheritance, still nothing? . . . Seriously, and be honest with yourself, you think you don't know what you want? You think we don't know exactly what you want? And no, it's not sex or losing virginity or banging hookers despite your many deluded attempts to tell us otherwise. You've been lying to yourself the whole time and it just causes you more pain.

And worse more is people comfort you when if fact they should make you confront your problems. I'm not sure how you'll interpret this, but you should man the fuck up.