Kinda

It was bittersweet. Sweet, because she tasted of the wine and coke she had been drinking (and, you know, me kissing her). Bitter, because she was trying to get back with her ex.

Full story:

We agreed to meet. She was ten minutes late and throughout those minutes, I was worried she might not turn up, but turn up she did. We went for a drink, talked about many things, had some food (Which they messed up and, despite the fact that she had ordered first, I had nearly finished mine before she got hers). We got on really well. I kept leaning towards her and she wasn't flinching. She made eye contact a lot and we often stared at each other for a while with no speaking. Anyway, we decided it was time to catch the train home. so we got to the station just in time to see my train running away and hers wasn't for another two hours.
So, we both had time to kill. We went to a pub and by that time, both of us were quite tipsy. We had a coke each and began talking again. We got closer and closer, until suddenly, she got close enough for me to realise what she was going to do. I moved away, knowing that she wasn't technically single, but she told me that the whole thing was complicated and she wasn't really seeing this guy and that if she knew he had kissed another girl, she would understand. Of course, she was ratted so I didn't really know whether she was in her right mind. She didn't seem drunk enough to not realise what she was doing, but enough to lower her inhibitions a bit. Anyway, after a bit of talking about this, she ended up just kissing me.

I just gotta say: WOW

I'd like to say, at that point, I loved it. I did, of course; the feeling was nice, she was a lovely, gorgeous person. But there was always that thought in the back of my mind, 'This cannot continue'. Then we were asked to stop by the landlady who said it was 'inappropriate'. We left our drinks half drunk and went outside and towards the train station, where we made out some more, including a little groping. we spent the next hour in each others arms. I was great...as long as I forgot about the complications. She seemed to sober up and come to her senses a little. Though she was willing to carry on, she did mention it was highly unlikely that we could continue after tonight

As of now, I'm not sure what's going to happen, but there is one thing I can now say

I KISSED A GIRL WOO HOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm actually legit happy to hear about this. You've been one of the underdogs, and you saw some success. Congrats on that. Too bad she's a cheating whore....... but nonetheless, you saw some action. Kudos.

Congratulations, The Doctor

It's a beautiful sensation indeed. I find it quite impressive that you were able to let go and enjoy it despite the anxiety and stressful factors. I'm a little sad about the cheating, though.

Alcohol probably.

Good, good.

Even if it goes no further then you have wank*ng material.

That is great to hear. You have come along way and I am sure you will continue to make progress. Maybe not with this girl but hopefully you will meet another girl and get further then.

Blimey, it been a day. I'm so glad I posted that when I did. If I had left it, I would have dismissed it as a very vivid dream.

The thing is, I should forget about her, I know that. I can't get involved. Yet everything about her is gorgeous. I can't stop thinking about her I've never really had oneitis before, but I am absolutly certain that if she was single, we could build something. If she was some cheap bar slut, fine, but having now had a taste of what I could have had and knowing that it could have been more is so damn annoying.

Shit, I am going through so many emotions at the mo: jealousy, annoyance, love, acceptance amongst a hundred others.

Still, I like to think about the sensation of the act itself. There were quite a few things I certainly didn't expect. My loveshyness completely disappeared once I started. I found that I couldn't really stop. I wanted it so much. I initiated loads of other kisses with her, I held her and she couldn't stop touching me. Quite often our hair got in the way and we both had to take a moment to sweep it out of the way. And not to mention just the mere fact of having someone else's tongue in your mouth and exploring hers with yours. She mentioned many times how good I was. She seemed very surprised that it was my first time. At one point I picked her up and put her on my lap and she moved my hand down to her ass. Wow, this is getting graphic.

So, according to JJ, I'm a 2 and therefore unlikely to get even a 'fat ugly chick'. I'm not tall. I'm not in shape. I'm not a bad boy. I'm a virgin. And yet I STILL managed to get some. Guess I've joined the ranks of the many MANY Yao Mings out there

Cheaters can provide many sentimental rationalizations for their acts and I'm pretty sure that's what she did with you. I guess it's up to you if you care about faithfulness, though; in your case, it's a very delicate thing to think about. If you keep thinking of how amazing she is despite being a cheater, you risk oneitis; but if you focus on the fact that she's a cheater and she's probably done the same, said the same things to many other men, you might protect yourself from oneitis, but you'll also lose some of your sense of accomplishment and that would be a bad thing as well.

Do you have any more dating opportunities on the horizon? Harness your newfound power and go after them. Keep yourself in the game somehow, you're on a roll.

Well, she said she had never done this before and I have no reason to disbelieve her. So I am quite flattered that she chose to cheat with me. It is an accomplishment. But I seriously do NOT want to get dragged into oneitis when there can be no other way.



Nope. There are no other single girls at the mo. Maybe in the future I could find one as great as her, but right now, it doesn't seem possible. I just need to give it some time.

there's no good reason to break someones trust, no matter how much she rationalised it. I'd save your feelings for someone who earns them. However, glad to hear that you have a positive experience in the bank, something to build on much luck with the future

She earned the feelings, don't worry about that.

I know I'm never around any more, and that I haven't posted in the mainstream forum area for months (occasional Facebook etc links don't count ), but even I have to get in on this.

Wow. Just wow. Well done Johnny boy! I thought today would be awkward for me because I'm moving back to Southend in 17 hours for the summer, but this news has made the whole thing bearable. I really can't praise you enough. I thought I had been doing better myself - for instance, just over two weeks ago, I managed to hug a girl and attempt to kiss her (I didn't properly because there were a lot of people around and I wasn't sure I was ready for that) - but this is something else. Let it continue from here, and don't let up (or forget to let people know how things are going). And given I know the girl in question (kind of)... I'm trying to think of something to say, but all I can think of is "wow". Go Doc!

Oh, by the way, my old phone broke. Those of you that have my mobile number (I think there are four in all; whether all are still around or not is another matter), let me know for certain and I'll send you the new one.